The face behind the mask

I don't know about the rest of you, but when I read someone's blog, I like knowing that they're human - that there's a real person with strengths and weaknesses, strong points and flaws, behind the words. With that in mind, I chose to write a little about me. (Sorry though stalkers, it won't be enough!)

Starting with the obvious: I am a twentysomething bio-female. I do identify mostly as female, but I don't dig binary gender roles. I like to get butchy on occasion. I like to alternate between growing my hair out and cutting it short, between wearing heels and low-cut blouses and wearing jeans, Chucks and a men's t-shirt.

I am a woman of substance. That is to say: I'm chubby! And for the most part, I wouldn't have it any other way. I'll never be slender or willowy. I would like to be in better shape, but I'm getting there.

I'm in a lifelong relationship with an awesome girl, known here as M. She is bio-female but identifies as genderqueer. She is my age.

I am a college graduate. Nothing fancy, just an AA, enough to get me by in the field that I had then chosen. I've since changed fields (some of you know about my new job - now all of you know!). I'm happy about this change!

I'm a bellydancer, a computer geek, a bookworm and a movie nut. A hardcore canine aficionado. Non-religious, politically middle of the road, although I support Obama for President.

I'm pretty damn new to the BDSM scene - hence all the alluding to "journeys" and such around this blog. It's a new adventure, and it's been a good time so far. I think I was always aware of the scene, due to all my time spent in books and online, but it never occurred to me that I could be a part of it until recently. M and I just kind of fell into it, and then I found out my mother of all people was in the scene, and it kind of took off from there. Nothing as accepting as having your own mum in the scene, y'know? She's the one who originally turned me on to FetLife, even.

So that's what this is all about, pretty much. Documenting my journey, my discoveries. I haven't seen too many newbie bloggers out there. So I'm hoping that, in addition to recording some great memories, I'll be able to help a few other newbies realize that it's okay that they're new; it's okay to make mistakes and goof up and be awkward; it's okay to not know what something is or to have to research - in fact, researching anything about the scene is a great way to start! It's okay to be excited about your first munch or your first play party, or even excited about your first piece of leather.

Ugh, I didn't mean to get so sappy. Anyway, that's me. I'm human. I have flaws and weaknesses - junk food being among them! In fact, now that I'm done with this post, I'm going to go switch out the laundry and wash the dishes (by hand). Maybe that'll get rid of my recurring ant problem!